some days you're a shooting star... week one

I had hoped to post an update each Sunday, but time seemed to just fly away from me.

What have I spent the past week doing? Working out, sleeping because of working out, eating because of working out, followed by more working out, and then more eating.

Oh and have I ever mentioned that I decided to start college a few months early? And that the fast paced classes are the equivalent of taking about 36 credit hours in one single semester?

Monday June 13th
Proved to be one of the harder days of my life. While I haven't technically moved out of my house - it was the beginning of the end. But I did it.

Tuesday June 14th
 I arrived to my second day of therapy, whining. Not because I was tired or because I was sore. Whining because of hatred. I dislike Omaha, very greatly.

Wednesday, June 15th
I finally accomplished one of my short term goals. I got a lady to smile. Never mind the fact that I had done so by walking in to a (not-so) automatic door.

Thursday June 16th
I went running down the apartment stairs giggling because "my people" came to visit me. I'm not gonna lie, there were a few tears in my eyes, as I saw them, and then again when they drove off.

& as weird as they were when I left them, the weirdness only increased

Friday June 17th
I had group therapy with a 12(?) year old boy. Who couldn't quite fathom being in a room with an 18 year old girl.

"If I were on a sinking ship half empty would be a more optimistic outlook than half full"

I've learned a few things in the past week.  Perhaps the biggest lesson, has been about perspective. Life truly is all about perspective.

On Thursday, one of my OT's and I had a lengthy discussion about shooting stars.

I was doing star jumps... And I'm sure that at the beginning, my form and energy did resemble a shooting star, but 30 seconds into my third circuit... my shooting star, began to look more like a drunk shooting star, but a shooting star just the same.

And that's true for all of us. Yes we fall. Yes we get tired. Yes sometimes we want to give up. Yes sometimes we almost let those two words from hell (I can't) slip out.

But.

It doesn't matter how life knocks us down, it doesn't matter how broken or slow we are, we are shooting stars just the same.

The shooting stars that take your breath away every time you see one fly across the night sky.

So to wrap things up... a few more truths I've learned in the past week.

1. You CAN do anything you put your mind too
2. Eileen makes better cookies than Grandma
3. You can do anything for 10 minutes
4. There are more stoplights on the way to bootcamp than there are in West Point
5. Placing all your trust in God, allows you to move mountains you never dreamed of even climbing

One of my friends asked me if it was better or worse than I thought it would be. Honestly? I think it's worse. But the thing is, I don't even know the honest answer. I've been tested in ways I never imagined in this past week. It's taken strength and courage. Strength and courage I wasn't even sure that I possessed. 

But when you place all of your trust in God, crazy, beautiful, insane things happen. He carries you when you need it, and with his help, even the impossible becomes possible. 

Until next week, 

Bek